Harsh Teacher!

Lonely all alone

So many voices telling me where I went wrong!

Two hundred numbers in my phone

But when is comes to crying and feeling the need to be held

Nobody is there to help

What did I do wrong?

Where did my life take this long dark path?

I look back

When my life was simple with no regrets

Nothing to hold me back

But now…

Everything is driving me insane

I regret every choice I make

Every step I take my heart fills with pain and more hate

Life is a harsh teacher that’s the fact

But when will the time come

When I’ll make my first step

Into a new decision with no way back

Because there will be nothing to regret.

When will the time come that I will smile for real not fake it like I do now?

Whats Wrong?

"MOM"

Always right never wrong

You think I don’t listen

Well you’re wrong

It seems like I don’t care

But I cherish your word

I take it so deep

That it hurts

You make me regret sometimes for being born

Yet I still love you for bringing me into this complicated world.

Love 

The lights are spinning and my heart is lost

We slow dance

I am lost in your eyes

Everyone else is just a blur

All I can see is you and me

Its funny how only one dance made me feel

I fall asleep to your CD you made me feel

Spilled all your feelings by last song

I can hear you whisper in my ear the words “I love you!”

It’s all just a dream

But I know when I’ll wake up you’ll be here

Whispering the words in my ear

Who listened all those times, when you were feeling low?
Who sat beside you in rough times and helped you where to go?
Who cried when you cried, and helped away the tears?
Who tried to stay next to you, and help you with your fears?
Did you forget, That I gave you my heart?
After you left, My whole world came apart.
Did you forget, all those nights we had?
And all those times you said you loved me, now it makes me sad.
Did you forget, when you called I was there?
I always helped, when you were in despare.
Well I remember all those times I made sure you were ok.
Cause if I get to see you smile once, it will be a better day.
You are now gone, but the memories still last.
It is hard to put the ones away with love, thats in the past.
But you can still call, I will still be there.
It will still be like before, I will always care.
And remember it wise, or you will regret.
Because I will always be there for you, or did you forget?

~Do U want me? Whats the Matter?~

Do you want me? What's the matter?
You're afraid some door will close?
You want the scent without the rose?
The moans of love without the chatter?

You think our love might be a tomb,
The only exit through my pain?
You'd rather put things off again
To give your fantasies some room?

You think: she's great, but in a while
I might get bored? Or something better,
Filling out a tighter sweater,
Might flash me a quick come-on smile?

You don't want to be tied just yet
To just one future, just one kiss?
You think about all you might miss
And hold out for a better bet?

Well, fine! But then why do you haunt
Me like a jackal night and day?
Why, when my interest seems to stray,
Are you so sure of what you want?

Why, when I dare so much as laugh
At some guy's jokes, you go ballistic,
Nasty, borderline sadistic,
As if somebody touched your stuff?

And yet when I hook on to you,
You will not let yourself be mine,
Take out your fears and draw a line
Between what you and I can do?

But freedom must be mutual,
And it takes two for one embrace.
You can't both love and freedom chase,
Unless you would adore a fool.