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You stroke my mind...
You came into my life just like friend, lending
me a helping hand.
One day you stroke my mind, how can be one so gentle and kind.
Interacting with all with
love and care, which i found something very rare.
I was blown by the way you talked, I wanted to say something
but my lips were locked.
Looking at you from a distance apart, could not resist to see u as it was so hard.
You
won my heart by the polite tenderness, as it was tough to find in some one else.
Your truth fullness and honesty
captured my mind, so many qualities how one can bind.
Now you live in my heart and captures my mind, rules the
soul and locked in my eyes.
Tears are not Enough
My mind begins to wonder My heart begins to
race As the memory of you Drifts back into place
I got a picture of you smiling With a sparkle in your eyes You
looked at me so gently And kept me mesmerized
AS much as I tired Your face wouldn't go away Your eyes, your
lips, your smile, I thought of you all day
It was soon about 3 With you still on my mind I thought while listening
to music In a flash it was 9
I made my bed To get some rest As I lay down I thought of nothing less
The
most important memories Replayed over and over again And I realized how I missed you As the days replayed again
No,
I hadn't known you very long But you had such an effect on me You captured my heart within a day As I begin to fall
wishing for you and me
The way it felt when we touched The way you made me feel It seemed that you were too perfect To
even be real
And that's when the tears Begin to form in my eyes They told myself how much I missed you, But
I did not want to cry
I hugged my teddy bear To soften the pain But it reminded me that it wasn't you, And
the tears they formed again
I remember the first night you kissed me, How the silence spoke so many words, There
was so much silence but so much said, you said nothing and I heard
I don't know why Thinking of you hurts me
so It seems like we had both nothing and everything, and I still can't let that go
I pick up the phone With
hope in my heart I dial the number Still sitting in the dark
The operator answered I dial the number to your
room She connects me, no trouble I might talk to you soon
But no surprise Your gone yet again She says
you'll be home She just doesn't know when
So I set down the phone Curling up into a ball Somehow convincing
myself That you don't care at all
So once again those days replay But this time I let a couple tears fall I
stop myself before it gets to far I let some of it go, but not it all
I want to cry but at the same time I don't, But
I know I have to be tough, Because in my heart I know That tears are not enough...
She couldn't stand the silence, She
couldn't stand the tears, She couldn't stand her life, After only sixteen years.
He was her entire world, She
gave him all she possessed, He did the same in return, They were thought to be obsessed.
Their love couldn't
be reached, Couldn't be touched by any other, They were all they needed, They only wanted each other.
From
two they became one, They made each other whole, They filled each other's voids, They filled each other's souls.
Everything
was perfect, Everything was great, Till one damning day, They were told they'd have to wait.
Her parents were
moving her, To a distant place, They'd be torn apart, Couldn't see each other's face.
They swore they'd make
it work, Vowed to stay together, Didn't care about the distance, They'd be together forever.
She gave it all
she had, She did her very best, But he still slipped away, He didn't pass the test.
While she was thinking
of him, He had found another, He said he couldn't do it, He talked it over with his mother.
She was devastated, Her
heart was torn straight out, She'd been such a fool, She should have listened to her doubt.
From then on they
stopped talking, Never spoke again, While he was with his new girl, She was dreaming of him.
Every day she'd
cry, She tried to fight off all the pain, But the hurting never stopped, Just shot through every vein.
Months
went by since the ending, But she only grew worse, She couldn't accept what happened, This was love's curse.
It
finally overtook her, She couldn't stand it anymore, She grabbed a picture of him, And snuck out the front door.
She
walked into the woods, Found a secluded place, Kept thinking of the past, And how she'd been replaced.
Hours
later she was found, In a pool of her blood, And beside her they found, His picture in the mud.
On the back
read her reason, Why she took her life, What he did to her, It seemed he had held the knife.
Though physically
he didn't kill her, He tore her soul apart, It was obvious how she did, It was from a broken heart.
"Beautiful Mistake"
Love is the slowest form of suicide Your lips
are laced with cyanide But I’m still addicted to your kiss And I can feel the tingle on my lips
I hear
your lies inside my head I know I’m alive but I feel dead I can’t take the pain you caused Nothing can
replace what I have lost
Each cut replaces a memory of what I used to know The blood is so pretty against the snow
I can feel my heart beating faster As I stare at my beautiful disaster
You were my favorite mistake Now
you’re the cuts I have to make Soon you’ll be my favorite scar I can’t handle who you are
Outside
you see my smiles; I’m faking! Inside you can’t see my pain; I’m breaking! I’m good at hiding,
great at pretending No one knows my life is ending
I’m silent even when I’m screaming I’m awake
even when I’m dreaming I’m not alive even when I’m breathing My heart’s broken even when it’s
beating
I feel the blood seep through the skin You’re every little mark, every little sin You’re
the name my wrist is bleeding You’re the name my voice is screaming
You’re the love in my suicide note You’re
the reason my heart broke This beautiful crimson is bled for you This beautiful death is because of you
I Can't Let Him Go
I looked at him for the first time, and
not noticing I would fall in love with him I looked away. I now sit at home only thinking about him. Why is it that
I can't let him go? I know realize he is never coming back, and begin to cry. He was my first, my first at so many things. But
the one thing I will always remember, is that he was my first "True Love." I did things not thinking of the outcome,
and now I am left home all alone. I just can't let him go. Why is it that he can act like nothing is wrong, and say
"I Love You?" Does it even mean anything? If he read this, would he show this to all of his friends? I just don't
know anymore! All I know is that I love a guy. And for that reason...... "I Can't Let Him Go"
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MY GUY
I want
him to be honest. I want him to always tell me the truth, even if it hurts. I want to be able to trust him. I will never
have to worry that he is with someone else; because I am the only one he wants.
I want him to be manly I want him
to get hurt and laugh it off as if it didn’t, even if his eyes tear up. I want to know that if I left him he would
cry for me. I want to know that I am his world. I want to know that he will kiss and hug me in front of his friends
even if they make fun of him.
I want him to always say yes when I say please, because he can’t say no. I want
him to tell me how sexy I am twenty times a day. I want him to be thoughtful. He will bring me home flowers one day just
because he wants to see me smile. I want to know that if I am crying he will be doing the same next to me, if only because
he sees me in pain. I want him to never leave a room without kissing me and saying “I love you.”
When
we make love I want him to want me so badly it hurts. And once we are done all he wants to do is cuddle and hold me tight. I
want him to tell me he will love me forever and believe him. I want us to have children, and they only get the best of
us. I want him to love my faults. I want for him to see me coming into a room and for his breath to catch.
I
want him to have an awesome sense of humor. I want him to tease me and make me laugh. I want for us to fight but that
it will only make us closer. I want for him to want to take away all my pain and sadness. I want for us to know each
other so well we finish each others sentences. I want to know when he is happy, sad, turned-on etc.
I want us to
never take each other for granted. I want us to be together forever. I want him to be the only one for me, and me for
him.
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~WithOut U I'd die~
The
night was dreamy as the rain came down, he said "Lets go for a ride away from town". All through the ride he had nothing
to say, it's almost as if something stood in his way. Then suddenly, it came, out of the blue. "My parents said
"i have to break up with you". "I'm sorry" he said "i cant pretend", "My parents said our love must end". he took
off her ring, as tears came from his eyes, at the same time, the fear of loosing him began to rise.
With tears threatening to fall, her held them back, as she unconsciously parked her car on the rail-road track. she
wrote something on a piece of paper, held his hand and said "Read it later". she always wished they would never part, she
said in a sad voice "You just broke my heart". he opened the door and walked out in the rain, Thats when he saw the
lights of the train. Realizing to late, at what he had sighted, with the blink of an eye, the metal collided. All
he could remember, was blood running red, and someone saying, "I'm sorry she's dead". The ambulance sounded like an
agony cry, Then he read the paper and it said "Without you I'd die "
No hope
They say to move on They say to cope Youll
find someone better You just need hope
Well hope is a hard thing to find When the only love in your life Has
walked away Leaving you in strife
How can you have hope? When there was only one person Who helped u through
thick and thin Takes away all your reason
Where do I find hope? When everything Ive ever believed in Comes
crashing down to an end Leaving me in out in the open
Could you find hope? When all is lost And cannot be
found No matter the cost
When my trust, betrayed My heart thrown to the ground My love forgotten My head
staying down
I see that there is no hope And no longer will the stars shine Just a pure darkness cast over me
heart Til the end of time
Goodbye
Abuse
The paper again blank, From words i cannot say I guess i just got scared, After
what you did today
I'm sorry that i spoke, And I'm sorry that i cried But, Dad, please listen, For once believe
I've tried
Tonight was just so horrible, And again i felt the sting, Of a thousand pounding fists Hammering
against my skin
"Dad, don't hit me again, It really hurts my head" But you don't even notice, You'll just
beat me till I'm dead
Never have you been around, To comfort me from pain Instead you use forceful hands, Only
proving you more insane
My heart is bleeding inside, My face stained black and blue I really hate lying to them, For
the abusive things you do
People are starting to wonder, If my excuses are real Many lies I've told them all, Of
the bruises that won't heal
"Falling over, tripping up, Even walking into the door, Playing sports on the weekend And
slipping on the floor"
Dad, i have no more heart To cover up your dirty lies I tried my best to listen, To
be quiet, and to hide
But after years of yelling, And flying ceramic disks I'm ready to run away, From the
hardness of your fists
I'm picking myself of the floor, And screaming in your face I don't care who hears me Because
i f cuking hate this place
So say goodbye to memories, Of chucking things at me Say fare well to my gutless heart, A
new, strong person you will see
I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find some1
new, I won't be alone, & I won't be w/you .. You're waiting 4me,2crawl back to ur side but no..not this time, I'm keeping
my pride .. So goodbye 4ever, I'll be on my way, It's gonna take time, but I'll be okay
forgetting him *forget his name* *forget
his face* *forget his kiss and warm embrace* *forget the love that once was true* *remember now there's something new* *forget
the times you spent together* *remember now he's gone forever*
~Youll never know how much I miss
you, You won't see it in my face, You'll never know I"ll never find another That could take your place Cus
I'll be smiling when I see you My tears won't ever show, Yeah I'm alwayz gonna love you, But I guess You'll never
know~
This time it's over, I'm keeping my heart
,I'm gonna be strong & not fall apart .. It'll get better, I'll no longer cry.. In a couple of weeks, I wont want 2 die,
I won't want 2 go back, I'll be able 2 sleep, It won't hurt so bad, & it won't feel so deep :-(
Im gonna write ur name but Ill do it w/a
twist Ill write it w/a razor blade Ill write it on my wrist n As I write ur name a red fountain will appear n as this fountain
flows my troubles disappear...
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